Actress Ellen page Says She felt Like an AHole While in the Closet
ACTRESS Ellen Page has opened up in a new interview about her decision earlier this year to come out as gay, saying life in the closet made her feel “guilty” and “like an a**hole.”
The Juno and X-Men star came out publicly on Valentine’s Day while giving a Human Rights Campaign speech. Now, in an interview with gay and lesbian magazine OUT to celebrate being named the publication’s ‘Entertainer of the Year’, Page has spoken about how heavily the decision weighed on her.
“We all go through a journey and get where we need to be, but I really did start feeling guilty. I kind of felt like an a**hole,” Page said.
Page says she ‘doesn’t have to talk about dresses and heels’ ever again. Source: AFP
Grrl power ... Page in the 2009 roller derby romp Whip It.Source: Supplied
The 27-year-old said she was even finding her media commitments more enjoyable now that she didn’t feel pressured to hide any part of her life.
“You just feel different in the world. Once you’ve done something that you used to think was impossible, what could ever really scare you again? Even now, press is more enjoyable because I don’t have to have certain conversations. For instance, I’m never going to have to have a conversation about a dress, or heels, ever again,” she said.
Page described the pressure not to come out from those inside the entertainment industry as insidious, saying she never felt like she could bring a woman to an event like the Oscars before coming out.
“No one’s ever been so direct as to say, ‘You’re gay, so we’re gonna hide it.’ But there’s an unspoken thing going on. [People] believe it’s the right thing to do for your career. They don’t realise it’s eroding your soul. It was eventually about me being like, Wait, why am I listening to that? At what point did I let those things become important?”
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