Showing posts with label HIV/Aids. Show all posts
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December 2, 2019

So Many Gay Writers Ended Up in Missing Posters



 Clockwise from top left: A new book of Steve Abbott’s writing, Steve Abbott, a new book of Karl Tierney’s poetry, the flyer that was posted when Tierney went missing.
Photo: Courtesy Jim Cory
                           






Karline Tierney still can’t really talk about it all these years later — that day in October 1995 when she flew to San Francisco International Airport to figure out what had happened to her son.

Karl Tierney was 39 and had lived in the city since 1983, lured here by the thriving gay community and its prominent literary scene. He was a poet and got 50 pieces published in magazines and anthologies. He twice had been named a finalist for the prestigious Walt Whitman Award. He was active in the Harvey Milk Club and marched in the Pride Parade.

But then he stopped returning his mom’s calls. He’d told her he’d been diagnosed as HIV-positive, and the last time she’d seen him, he’d been in a lot of discomforts, struggling with thrush, an oral fungus, and unable to eat much, she said.

“That was when we went to San Francisco to see what was wrong,” the 93-year-old great-grandmother recalled by phone from her home outside Baltimore.

Things had gone very wrong.

“He had left a note,” she said, pausing for several moments.  

Crowds arrive early on the opening day of the Golden Gate International Exposition. Feb. 18, 1939.
“Yeah, I don’t really want to talk about it,” she said.

The note implied Karl Tierney planned to kill himself, but had he? How? And where? Together with his friend David Lamble, the film critic for the Bay Area Reporter gay newspaper, she posted flyers around the city with her son’s photo and the words, “Have You Seen This Man?”

“We were trying to figure out what had happened — it was quite a mystery we were trying to solve,” Lamble recalled. “It’s like you’re sleepwalking. This vibrant man is gone, and you have to be a detective.”

Karl Tierney’s body was never found, but his bicycle was located at the Golden Gate Bridge, and his parents and friends assume he jumped to his death to avoid an even more painful end from AIDS.

San Francisco has lost more than 20,000 people to AIDS — most of them gay men — since the first death from the disease in 1981. Tierney has become part of a small but growing literary trend of posthumously publishing the work of gay men who died too early.

For the first time, Tierney’s poetry has been published as a collection. The book is called, fittingly, “Have You Seen This Man?” A reprint of the flyer his mother and Lamble posted is included inside along with 120 of his poems. It is dedicated to “all the boys who jumped to live.” 

Alysia Abbott, who lives outside Boston, wrote the 2013 memoir “Fairyland,” about losing her mom in a car accident and being raised by her gay dad in San Francisco. After he died of AIDS in 1992, his daughter inherited the rights to his work. All of it had been out of print until this new book, for which she wrote the afterword.

It was edited by Jamie Townsend, a genderqueer poet, publisher and editor who lives in Oakland. Townsend will be at the library event along with Abbott and Cory.

“There are these younger writers, editors, and scholars who are basically interested in finding artists and writers who died of AIDS, who may be kind of never achieved their full potential because they died young,” Abbott said. “Instead of letting these figures languish in the realm of being out of print, they take an interest in their work and bring it back to life.

“For a lot of queer editors and writers, it’s like their ancestry,” she continued. “It’s digging your heroes out of trash cans.”

She added that her dad was unusual in that he had a child who can help keep his memory alive, but most gay men who died of AIDS didn’t.

“Who remembers them?” she wondered. “These younger queer editors are the inheritors. They are children.”

Abbott is now 48, the same age at which her dad died.

“I made this vow to myself. I want to live the hell out of this year,” she said. “Aging is a privilege he didn’t get to enjoy.”

Her dad and Karl Tierney ran in the same circles, and “Fairyland” includes a mention of Tierney. So it’s fitting both books will be celebrated together at Sunday’s event.

Tierney asked Cory, his longtime friend, and fellow writer, to be the literary executor of his estate five weeks before he died, and by December 1995, Cory had boxes of his late friend’s work.
“His poems got better, stronger, deeper and smarter as time went on,” Cory said.
Cory was able to get some published on their own over the years, but no publishing house was interested in a book until now. The collection was published by Sibling Rivalry Press, and Publishers Weekly called it “historically significant” and “groundbreaking in its content.”
Tierney’s sister, Mary, will be at the Sunday event, but his mother cannot make the journey. Karline Tierney said she is ecstatic about the new book, which can help her son live on in some way.
“Oh, I was thrilled to pieces!” she said. “I’m happy his work is getting the recognition it deserves. It’s wonderful and not often the case once an author has passed.”
Tierney’s friend Lamble is also delighted.
“If you’re an obscure gay poet, it’s a long lead time, but I’m glad it’s happened,” he said. “I just wish Karl was around to see it.”
San Francisco Chronicle columnist Heather Knight appears Sundays and Tuesdays. Email: hknight@sfchronicle.com Twitter: @hknightsf


October 26, 2019

How Do We Grow Old With HIV




                



Image result for hiv and getting old
 Picture from poz




This article is part of Telescope: The New AIDS Epidemic, a deep-dive investigation into the modern face of a disease that transformed the world.
LISBON — Luís Mendão remembers a time, in the late 1990s, when he was embarrassed to pick up the phone. 
The Portuguese activist, who was running a restaurant at the time, had been diagnosed with full-blown AIDS and spent months settling his accounts and telling his friends goodbye.
But, a year later, he was still standing. His problem was no longer how to put his affairs in order. It was what to do with the rest of his life.
Nearly a quarter of a century later, Mendão, 61, is one of an increasing number of people who face a challenge that once would have seemed an unthinkable luxury: growing old with HIV. 
 In Portugal alone, some 35,000 people are on life-saving antiretroviral medication — up from 5,000 when Mendão first started treatment. Of the nearly 37 million people infected with HIV worldwide, about one in six have already celebrated their 50th birthday.
This change in the nature of the epidemic — from a death sentence to a disease that must be managed into old age — poses a new challenge in the battle against it. For the vast majority infected with HIV, the problem is no longer about how to keep from dying, it's about how to cope with a virus that they will likely have to manage for the rest of their lives.

Aging with the virus

Mendão touches his chest and then his stomach. He was one of the first reported cases of fat accumulation caused by early antiretroviral treatments in Portugal. The three-drug combination that saved his life also hollowed out his cheekbones and swelled his belly.
“It had all the adverse events that you can imagine,” he says. “But it was also efficient in stopping the replication of the virus, so it was very efficient in keeping me alive.”
Luís Mendão thought he’d received a death sentence when he was diagnosed with
AIDS in the late 1990s. | Alfredo Brant for POLITICO




Researchers and health care systems around the world are just beginning to understand
 what it means to grow old with HIV, as the first cohort of people infected in 
their youth enters the later stages of their lives.
Complications can arise from the effects of the virus and from the medication used to keep it in check, says Eugénio Teófilo, a consultant in internal medicine at the Hospital Dos Capuchos in Lisbon. 
“HIV disease nowadays is a disease of inflammation,” he says. Even when antiretroviral drugs have knocked the virus down to undetectable levels, the body remains under a low-level state of stress.
The inflammation causes problems in people’s cardiovascular systems. “We have more dyslipidemia — increased levels of fat in the blood — in persons with HIV and we have an increased risk of heart problems and even stroke,” he says.
Then there are the long-term side effects of HIV medication. Crixivan, a drug used in the early days of AIDS treatment, gave people huge bellies and humps on the back of their necks. A protein inhibitor, the drug had “huge metabolic impacts,” increasing the cholesterol level in the blood, which could lead to heart attacks, Teófilo says. It was also found to accumulate in the kidney. Another drug, d4T, had the side effect of draining fat from patients’ faces.
Even some of the antiretroviral drugs used to control HIV today can have negative side effects on people’s bones, kidneys and livers, while others interact with drugs people usually take when they get older, such as statins to control cholesterol levels, antidepressants, and cardiovascular medicines, according to a report by the European AIDS Treatment Group (EATG), an advocacy group. 
Many of those living with HIV were not prepared to get old, so in many cases they live more isolated lives, given that they have a disease that was and remains highly stigmatized, says Giulio Maria Corbelli, a member of EATG who was diagnosed with HIV in 1997 and was recently involved in research on aging with HIV.
“The perception that the general population has of HIV is more or less the same as 20 years ago,” he says.
For his part, Mendão has convinced the virus — and the drugs he has taken to fight it — have caused him to age faster. “I have the heart and spine and other things that are more common in people that are 80 than 60,” he says.
There is one good side of getting old with HIV, he adds. He goes to the doctor more often to get checked, so other diseases are diagnosed early.

Death's door

It was a young doctor who haltingly delivered the news of his HIV diagnosis to Mendão. “At the time, it was the youngest one who was sent as punishment to communicate the results to patients, because it was a death sentence,” Mendão recalls.
Mendão had studied biochemistry in France at university, lived briefly in Italy, then returned to Lisbon to run a nightclub with his cousin.
He had used heroin and cocaine when he was young and had, he says, loved both men and women. He liked his male partners younger and his women lovers older, he says with a smile. In retrospect, he thinks he was infected in 1986, during a one-night stand with a man he didn’t know.
By 1996, he had been feeling bad for a couple of years. He shuttled from doctor to doctor and was told he was depressed. It never crossed his mind that he could be infected with HIV.
Those living with AIDS still suffer psychological issues | Florian Schuh/AFP via Getty Images

By September of that year, when his diagnosis came, he was almost in the terminal stage. “My immune system had collapsed,” he says. One of the markers of AIDS is the level of white blood cells that fight infections known as CD4s. Healthy people have between 500 to 1,500 cells per microliter of blood. The commonly accepted threshold for AIDS is 200. Mendão had just two.
At the time, someone in the throes of AIDS could expect to live two to three years, Mendão says. So he figured he had less than a year to live. His first thought was that he’d have to find a way to settle his debts; his restaurant business was not going well.
Then he asked for his notebook and for coins to use the hospital payphone to warn his eight most recent sexual partners — four men and four women — that they could have been infected too. (Their results all came back negative.)

New life

The first months with AIDS were the hardest. His compromised immune system left him vulnerable to pneumonia, skin infections and “worst of all,” an infection that nearly blinded him in his right eye.
“That only happens when AIDS reaches [its] final course,” he says. Treating the eye condition required him to come to the hospital every day, and there was no guarantee it would prevent blindness.
He devised a suicide plan to engineer a car crash that looked like an accident so that his loved ones could cash in on his life insurance. He even picked out the place he would do it.
He started taking the antiretroviral medication in order to buy himself enough time to settle his accounts, visiting one of Portugal’s most respected HIV specialists, Kamal Mansinho. It was an intensive treatment: Mendão took his first pills at 4 a.m. and every two hours until midnight and followed a strict diet.
In Portugal, 35,000 people are on life-saving antiretroviral medication | 
Patricia de Melo Moreira/AFP via Getty Images


Fully expecting to be dead before the end of 1997, he was shocked when Mansinho told him he was “not dying now.”
For Mendão, that wasn’t entirely good news. He had resolved his debts but had no money and no career. He was still sick and half-blind and wondered if he would have enough energy to start something up again.
It was somebody else’s attempt to end her life that turned things around. After the younger sister of a former girlfriend attempted suicide, he invited her to stay with him in Portugal. Soon after they were hiking the 1,000-kilometer Camino de Santiago, a network of old pilgrim routes ending in Spain.
It was a transformative journey. He couldn’t believe what he saw in the mirror when he went to take a shower in his hotel in Santiago, at the end of the hike. “No belly, all muscles. I was never like this in my all life,” he remembers thinking.
He dropped his plans for suicide. “I loved it, and I became more physically fit than ever,” he says. Soon after, he married his walking companion.

Changes in treatment

The transformative effects of antiretroviral drugs has changed the way HIV needs to be tackled, says Teófilo, the consultant in internal medicine at the Hospital Dos Capuchos. “Nowadays I hardly think about HIV.” Nearly all his patients have suppressed the virus with antiretroviral drugs.
Now he’s concerned with monitoring the side effects of the treatment. Modern antiretrovirals no longer have the dramatic effects they did on Mendão, but they can still cause serious health problems in some patients.
Teófilo also focuses on the prevention of other diseases in his patients — something he admits is a new thing for doctors like him, trained to treat diseases rather than preventing them. 
If side effects are serious, patients might decide to stop taking the medicines, which is one of his big concerns, Teófilo says.
“When I think about medication for patients, [I wonder] how I can fit that medication in their lifestyle because it’s hard to have someone change their lifestyle so they can take the medication,” he said.
What hasn’t changed over the past decades is fear of HIV, according to Teófilo. People come asking for PrEP drugs, medicines to prevent them from getting the disease.
Talking with patients, he realized that anxiety is a big motivator, and many aren’t doing well psychologically. “If we try to improve their psychological health, they might not even need PrEP any longer,” he says.

Biggest regret

For Mendão, HIV has become just one of his health concerns. Antiretroviral treatments have improved greatly in the two decades since his diagnosis. To keep the virus in check these days, he takes two pills in the morning and once at night. He also takes 10 other pills for other conditions, such as diabetes and asthma.
Living with HIV remains a big challenge, he says. “You have to give up on too many things: your image, after a certain time your sexuality, your wellbeing, and you feel always tired, you feel always a pain.”
He has built a second career as an activist and now runs Portugal’s Treatment Action Group, a 65-people NGO that advocates for access to treatment for HIV and other diseases and offers testing services in the Lisbon area. In 2015, he received a medal from the Portuguese president for helping the country negotiate a lower price for the first hepatitis C drug that could cure the disease. He was also one of the beneficiaries of this new class of hepatitis C drugs. After a different treatment in 2003 wreaked “horrendous side effects” and nearly killed him, one of the new drugs cured him of the disease in 2015
Mendão has built a successful career as an activist who advocates for access
 to treatment for HIV and other diseases | Alfredo Brant for POLITICO
  
Mendão says he gave up on sex after he divorced his wife in 2005. With drugs and alcohol also behind him, he has one vice left: smoking. “Otherwise, I would be a saint,” he says. He sometimes jokes with a colleague in a similar situation that they’re immortal. “We are growing old, but we’re condemned to eternal life,” he says with a laugh.
If there was one thing he would change about his life with the virus, it would be the fact that he never had children. “Though I got married when I was 41, I decided that my life expectancy, the burden of disease, was not a good environment for kids,” he says. “Today I regret [this]. This would have been a big difference in my life.”
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